Me? Random!

Yeahh, nowadays i feel random. Don't ask me why coz i don't know.. and if i know it, i think i won't tell. :P

I had lot of fun and great time these days but still can't erase these feeling. They appears sometimes.. and when they appear, i just sunk myself to music!!! Yeahh, i love music!!
:lovestruck:

Well, in this post i'll let out one of the stuffs that still make me unsteady somehow. My besties told me to write it out then i'll free!! So..
Let's start!

It was YOU! You curious about my feeling after we broke up, didn't u?

I didn't tell that time coz I'm an introvert and COOL! but somehow, that time, hatred grew in me. Everything you did and said seem so fake! -Sorry but it felt like that time :"> -

Time pass by, i choose to not let the hatred control me. You've forgiven when i wrote this post. And i tell you what i felt when we just broke up so you won't be curious anymore.

You were the one chasing me, then you make me fell for you, trapped me in doubt, and then you chose walked away!! It sounds so flirty. First, i won't let you go easily, boy. You chose me then i would try my best to keep what you've started. Time flies, it's just the same..even it became worse. You made a line between us. And honestly, i never feel i was ur girlfriend that time, we're just like friend. Nothing special.. I'm dumb. Oh, yes! dumb! but thanks for my friends and my besties that support me all the time when i feel down.

The last month before we broke up, i've overcame my feeling toward you.. It was useless keep stay with the one who didn't heary you as much as he ever told! It was a LIE! You didn't wanna end our relationship but you didn't want to involve deep in it, either. Well, you chose that! So after found the exact time, i asked to break up!

You must be think it was hard for me, felt guilty, but heyy.... i still laugh at that time we're broke up. I chat wif my chum and laugh a lot. Feel so free and happy that night. I was fine! No tears at all! Like i said, I'm COOL!! :D

AND now..........no harm no foul, fella! No hatred, no special feeling left! :D You are still my chum, yeahh you are. but that's all..

Some advice for you, if you dont sure about your feeling, dont do anything until you really sure about it! Don't involve too much with other people problems since you are 'not a boy but not a man yet!' , you even can't solve problem well when it came to you.. but THANKS lot, you've teached me lot about boys, really... :) So, hope you will more mature and find your happiness!!

Ps. I'm sorry for being selfish with this post but hell with it, I'm FREE now!! Heyheyyy!! :D