Merry Christmas, Jennifer

Two days ago, i found an old book in my sister's cupboard. I scanned the book quick, and i choose a random article about people's experiences on Christmas. I found this story.. Mind to read it a while..?? :)


Selamat Natal, Jennifer

Halo, Sayang. Suasana Natal tahun ini takkan mungkin seperti biasanya tanpa kehadiranmu. Namun kami akan mencoba menguasai diri terhadap sekian banyak kenangan yang berasal dari masa sembilan belas tahun kehidupan kami bersamamu. Satu-satunya yang kudambakan untuk Natal ini adalah kehadiranmu kembali di tengah-tengah kami, namun karena tahu itu tidak mungkin maka aku harus puas dengan berkirim berita saja kepadamu: mudah-mudahan Tuhan akan menyampaikannya sendiri bertepatan dengan perayaan Natal.

Aku merasa kehilangan dirimu, untuk membantuku berbelanja persiapan Natal. Kau selalu bisa merasakan apa yang disukai ibumu. Seminggu belakangan ini ibumu sangat sibuk membuat kue-kue. Bermacam-macam jenisnya. Acara berkumpul kita yang biasa akan diadakan di rumah Paman Steve. Sarah sering merindukanmu pada malam hari, saat kalian dulu biasa mengobrol panjang lebar. Ia merasa kehilangan kakaknya - nasihat-nasihatnya dan juga pertengkaran yang sesekali terjadi! Walaupun kamu sering dimarahi oleh ayah dan ibu karena setiap tindakanmu yang ceroboh dan keras kepala, tapi yakinlah, kami selalu mencintaimu.

Sayang, maafkan ibumu. Sejak kematianmu setahun lalu, kami belum pernah menginjakkan kaki ke makammu. Makammu pasti sudah kotor, tidak terawat dengan salib tertancap. Bukannya kami tidak peduli padamu, tapi kami belum mampu menginjakkan kaki ke makammu. Setiap memikirkanmu, air mata ini berucuran tiada henti. Bahkan ayahmu yang selalu tampak tegar dan kuat, masih merasa sedih setiap ibu atau Sarah mengingatmu kembali.

Tapi kami sudah sepakat, besok kami akan ke makammu, menyingkirkan salju yang tebalnya mungkin hampir semeter, membersihkan makammu dan menghiasinya dengan bunga-bunga.

Jennifer, kami akan selalu merindukan dirimu. Kasih sayang kami takkan pernah lenyap dan kami takkan pernah melupakan dirimu!


Salam kasih dari Sarah, Mom, dan Dad

I'm Back

Phewwwww....!! Havent post anything for quite long.. My internet connection was suck!!! Now it's getting better.. and i'll start blogging again. :D Hope the connection not getting worse again.. :)

Well, this last month flew so fast.. Lot of fun, laugh yet problems.. but i enjoyed it.
Many unpredictable things happened, cool.. :))

O.ow.. i start to talk to myself again. stop, Jean!

So, i will start post some writings again.

Anyway, lately i listen to 'A Rocket To The Moon'
and i heart their songs!!!






These are some of their prodigious songs:

If Only They Knew
Not A Second To Waste
Dakota
I Think About You Every Day (a bit slow)


Cao

Novem for November

Well, i will post some quotes that i like and inspiring me lot these days...
CHECK it out....!! :D


There’s never an ending, just new beginnings. The past makes you who you are but won’t predict who you’ll be. You choose who you’ll become.
- @twiquotations -



The most important thing is to enjoy your life—to be happy—it’s all that matters.
- Audrey Hepburn -



Letting go of someone special to you is hard, but holding on to someone who doesn't feel the same is much harder.
- @twiquotations -



I believe that the only courage anybody ever needs is the courage to follow your own dreams.
- Oprah Winfrey -


Don't go for the guy who sucks up to U. Go for the one who pisses U off on a daily basis & yet U still find yourself crazy in love with him.
- @twiquotations -


Pooh: This is the best part of the day. Christopher Robin: What part is that? Pooh: When "you" and "me" become "we".
- Pooh -


It's not about who you've known the longest, it's about who's never left your side.
- Anonymous -


The more you know about who you are, and what you want, the less you let things upset you.
- Anonymous -


I try to teach my heart not to want things it can’t have.
- Alice Walker -

Rated: STYLISH !

Rated: STYLISH! I inspired by the magz. I opened my pictures folder and there're some pictures of my cheery lovely chums! From some of them, i found out this one has her own style.....

She's stylish! :)

Let's check it out!!




Pw in her new cardigan, T-shirt, legging, necklace and black flat shoes





Pw in her black trousers, T-shirt, belt, glasses, and rainbow-beeds necklace






Ah, yeah, she's lost in stereo! lost in audio! :P
Those pink and blue shoelaces are nice!





ready to attend a wedding party :D






cool or need to slap?? :peace:




Look here, darl! :p




Pw in her red legging, black vest, T-shirt, Slrrrpp necklace
and wondershoe flatshoes





Pw in T-shirt, stripped cardigan, pants, and
red wondershoe flatshoes





Yeahh! Those are her necklaces..! XD


So, what do you think??!



- Fashion fade, Style remains -

:D

Influence!

Many people walk in and out from my life. Some are just stranger that only pass a whilst and then disappear. Some pass a whilst but left a deep impression. And i will tell about a person that influences me lot. :D
I won't tell clearly the person is a boy or girl but i'll call it 'He'.

I know him for almost 3 years.. First time i saw him, suddenly i felt i have to know this guy. This is unsual feeling, really. I seldom to start a conversation with a stranger, but at that time something push me to did it. So, i did it!
and till now, we're bestpal. :D


You wanna know how is he look alike??
Sorry, won't upload any picture. haha


He's good-looking, smart, fashionable, cool, a good learner in so many things, unique, kind and humble (no?! Ahh, you must know him well more :P).

He may looks arrogant if you don't know him well but the truth, he is quite friendly..

He never looks weak! Really! He always overcome every problem well..somehow he's good at hiding his feelings especially if it a bad or sad things. :P

He is consistent in everything he likes to do...not a lazy guy.

He's good at so many things especially if it about design, gadgets, computer stuffs. He's a computer geek anyway..and he's also up-to-date bout lot of things.

He's a hardworker.. Work hard, play hard, and chat hard.. LOL

He has a great sense of music! :D

For me, he's a good listener and dependable.. Somehow i never talk much bout many things with my chums, yeahh, i'm lil bit introvert. :D but with him, it just like i can't hide a thang from him. Gosh!! kill me!!

Sometimes, he talks a little rude but honest.. He's one from lot of chums that can be like this. Say good when it is good, say it is not when it is not! straight to the point! >> heart it!

He's dare to be different!! Thumbs up! :D

He has a good sense in fashion..

Sometimes he may seemed doesn't care but he cares... He shows his caring in his way.. :)

And hey, most of time when he's in the crowded, he drew other peoples attention! really! He's attractive! haha..

Somehow, must admit it, he's trendsetter and contagious! :">

He's loveable, really... It will be like addicted to heroine, easy fall, hard to let go..
Dont believe? Just ask ... #ehem. haha

He's also has a good sense of humour...

Well, there're still a lot more to mention! Next time i'll continue.... *tired :p*



Why i can write a lot bout him??? Because ....
*speechless a whilst*
Ehem.. because i adore and heart him lot..
Every little thing of him draw me to know him better and better..
What??! Oh, No.. think it positively... It's like PLATONIC! :D
He's just like my brother anyway... *yeah, we're siblings from outter space, hahaha*



You know who i mean???
Sssttt...... Don't tell it to him, please! It will sounds cheesy.
He doesn't like cheesy thangs.
So it just between us. :P


Me? Random!

Yeahh, nowadays i feel random. Don't ask me why coz i don't know.. and if i know it, i think i won't tell. :P

I had lot of fun and great time these days but still can't erase these feeling. They appears sometimes.. and when they appear, i just sunk myself to music!!! Yeahh, i love music!!
:lovestruck:


Well, in this post i'll let out one of the stuffs that still make me unsteady somehow. My besties told me to write it out then i'll free!! So..
Let's start!

It was YOU! You curious about my feeling after we broke up, didn't u?

I didn't tell that time coz I'm an introvert and COOL! but somehow, that time, hatred grew in me. Everything you did and said seem so fake! -Sorry but it felt like that time :"> -

Time pass by, i choose to not let the hatred control me. You've forgiven when i wrote this post. And i tell you what i felt when we just broke up so you won't be curious anymore.

You were the one chasing me, then you make me fell for you, trapped me in doubt, and then you chose walked away!! It sounds so flirty. First, i won't let you go easily, boy. You chose me then i would try my best to keep what you've started. Time flies, it's just the same..even it became worse. You made a line between us. And honestly, i never feel i was ur girlfriend that time, we're just like friend. Nothing special.. I'm dumb. Oh, yes! dumb! but thanks for my friends and my besties that support me all the time when i feel down.

The last month before we broke up, i've overcame my feeling toward you.. It was useless keep stay with the one who didn't heary you as much as he ever told! It was a LIE! You didn't wanna end our relationship but you didn't want to involve deep in it, either. Well, you chose that! So after found the exact time, i asked to break up!

You must be think it was hard for me, felt guilty, but heyy.... i still laugh at that time we're broke up. I chat wif my chum and laugh a lot. Feel so free and happy that night. I was fine! No tears at all! Like i said, I'm COOL!! :D

AND now..........no harm no foul, fella! No hatred, no special feeling left! :D You are still my chum, yeahh you are. but that's all..


Some advice for you, if you dont sure about your feeling, dont do anything until you really sure about it! Don't involve too much with other people problems since you are 'not a boy but not a man yet!' , you even can't solve problem well when it came to you.. but THANKS lot, you've teached me lot about boys, really... :) So, hope you will more mature and find your happiness!!


Ps. I'm sorry for being selfish with this post but hell with it, I'm FREE now!! Heyheyyy!! :D

Songsssssss


Check..! Ehemm... Last days, i was suffering because all my playlist in winamp make me feel boring. Then, my lovely chum come and save me!!!! She gives me lot of great songs!! Like it, love it, fond of it, heart it!! haha..

Well, when i was in high school, i like to hear R&B, hip hop, POP, slow rock.. but when i knew PW, she introduces me to another kind of music, PUNK! and i heart it lot!!!!
Bowling For Soup, Paramore, All American Reject, CIWWAF, Boys Like Girls, and lot more.... Thanks to you, PoRi!! :D

These some of the latest songs that she gives me.
Heart it all, chum!
:D



All American Reject - When The World Comes Down



All Time Low - Put Up Or Shut Up



All Time Low - Nothing Personal



Boys Like Girls - Love Drunk



CIWWAF - The Same Old Blood Rush With A New Touch



Mest - Destination Unknown



The Academy Is - Almost Here



The Used - Artwork