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Segumpal Tanah Liat

Kuambil segumpal tanah liat
Kubentuk dengan santai suatu hari,
dan saat jari-jariku menekannya,
tanah liat itu terbentuk seperti yang kumau.

Waktu berlalu dan ketika kudatang lagi,
tanah itu telah mengeras,
bentuk yang kubuat masih tampak,
namun ku tak dapat mengubahnya lagi.

Kuambil segumpal tanah liat hidup
Kubentuk dengan lembut hari demi hari
Kubentuk dengan dorongan dan rasa seniku
Hati seorang anak yang lembut dan mudah dibentuk.

Beberapa tahun kemudian ketika kudatang lagi,
Kulihat seorang dewasa.
Bentuk yang kubuat masih tampak,
namun ku tak dapat mengubahnya lagi.


Anonim


Yohaaa!! Setelah sekian lama blog ini terbengkalai, hari ini gw muncul kembali. Saat ingin ngeblog. Tiba-tiba ngerasa blank. Apa yang mau ditulis, apa yang mau dibahas. Haiss.. [-(

Then, gw nemuin tulisan ini di salah buku gw. Buku itu membahas tentang disiplin anak. Jadi anak kecil itu diibaratkan seperti tanah liat yang masih mudah dibentuk baik itu sikap dan sifatnya. Saat seseorang sudah dewasa, kita susah untuk mengubah sifat mereka yang sudah terbentuk sejak kecil. Namun bukan berarti kalau sudah dewasa kita tidak bisa mengubah sifat dan kebiasaan kita yang sudah berakar ini. Semua bisa saja dilakukan. Namun tidak bisa dilakukan oleh pacar, teman, orang tua atau siapa pun terkecuali diri kita sendiri.

Yah, dan ini yang sedang gw coba terapkan untuk gw sendiri. Ternyata menolong diri juga tidak gampang, perlu konsistensi, niat, dan kemampuan untuk memotivasi diri.
Hope can make it. :D


Me from the Ixus :D

YOhaaaaaaa......!!
So, about last week, i bought a camera pocket..
and now i have a new hobby, capturing things and people..
Well, just for fun. :D

Here are some of my pictraits, taken by my chum, Phiphi, with Canon Ixus 95!!
I love the Ixus so muchhhhhhhhh....!! :D

















Do i look good?? hahahhahahaha....

Phiphi always know how to capture a pictrait well, trust me!

:D

KETEL

Well... Havent feed my blog for quite long.. :D

I will tell about bunch of my chums...
All of us are friends, sometimes hanging out and spend time together..
And once upon of time, we called ourselves, "Ketel" (Keluarga Telenovela) . :))
but now 3 of them has gone to Beijing for studying.



I wont blab much, here are some of our pictures...




@ The Roof Cafe



Ferry's birthday :D



@ Pizz Hut



@ Parking lot


@ Parking lot


The sweet memories that will always lay on my mind.

*wink*

L-O-V-E

A word that has a deep meaning.

'L-O-V-E'

Aha! I wont discuss about the definition of it. It's too complicated. Every people has different love experience, different point of view about it, and it's subjective somehow.. :)

I just wanna say something about it. Well, i just saw a proof of the saying, "Love is Magic". I never really believe about it. But when you saw it with your own eyes, you will believe it!!
That's what i felt this lately.. Lot of love stories from my chums and those stories inspired me a lot.

* People change when they are in love.. change in to good or bad, it depends.

* It's need a courage to face love. This may sounds silly but it's true.. It's need courage to chase the love, keep it, fight for it.

* It's not easy to find pure love

* It's somehow difficult to admit that you're in love

* It's funny how your attention easily distracted by the person you like

* It's magic how you just met him/her and another minutes after that, heyy..you are missing him/her..

* Every time you hear his/her name, you'll be smirk :P

* Even in everywhere you see him/her, you can't get your eyes off of him/her.

* You feel wanna spend all your time with him/her without distraction.

* The things that you felt impossible, could be possible with love.

* Suddenly you like sweet words, sweet things that you never like before :p

* Suddenly you look more beautiful and handsome because you're in love.. It's true, people shine when they're in love. :))

* Time seems tick so fast when you were with him/her, you will feel it's never enough, never..

* Every time you wake up, 3 things in your mind is him/her, him/her and him/her.


Okay, i'll add more if i find the others. :D

Or you guys may add it in your comment for this post. Thankiezz..! :D

Merry Christmas, Jennifer

Two days ago, i found an old book in my sister's cupboard. I scanned the book quick, and i choose a random article about people's experiences on Christmas. I found this story.. Mind to read it a while..?? :)


Selamat Natal, Jennifer

Halo, Sayang. Suasana Natal tahun ini takkan mungkin seperti biasanya tanpa kehadiranmu. Namun kami akan mencoba menguasai diri terhadap sekian banyak kenangan yang berasal dari masa sembilan belas tahun kehidupan kami bersamamu. Satu-satunya yang kudambakan untuk Natal ini adalah kehadiranmu kembali di tengah-tengah kami, namun karena tahu itu tidak mungkin maka aku harus puas dengan berkirim berita saja kepadamu: mudah-mudahan Tuhan akan menyampaikannya sendiri bertepatan dengan perayaan Natal.

Aku merasa kehilangan dirimu, untuk membantuku berbelanja persiapan Natal. Kau selalu bisa merasakan apa yang disukai ibumu. Seminggu belakangan ini ibumu sangat sibuk membuat kue-kue. Bermacam-macam jenisnya. Acara berkumpul kita yang biasa akan diadakan di rumah Paman Steve. Sarah sering merindukanmu pada malam hari, saat kalian dulu biasa mengobrol panjang lebar. Ia merasa kehilangan kakaknya - nasihat-nasihatnya dan juga pertengkaran yang sesekali terjadi! Walaupun kamu sering dimarahi oleh ayah dan ibu karena setiap tindakanmu yang ceroboh dan keras kepala, tapi yakinlah, kami selalu mencintaimu.

Sayang, maafkan ibumu. Sejak kematianmu setahun lalu, kami belum pernah menginjakkan kaki ke makammu. Makammu pasti sudah kotor, tidak terawat dengan salib tertancap. Bukannya kami tidak peduli padamu, tapi kami belum mampu menginjakkan kaki ke makammu. Setiap memikirkanmu, air mata ini berucuran tiada henti. Bahkan ayahmu yang selalu tampak tegar dan kuat, masih merasa sedih setiap ibu atau Sarah mengingatmu kembali.

Tapi kami sudah sepakat, besok kami akan ke makammu, menyingkirkan salju yang tebalnya mungkin hampir semeter, membersihkan makammu dan menghiasinya dengan bunga-bunga.

Jennifer, kami akan selalu merindukan dirimu. Kasih sayang kami takkan pernah lenyap dan kami takkan pernah melupakan dirimu!


Salam kasih dari Sarah, Mom, dan Dad

I'm Back

Phewwwww....!! Havent post anything for quite long.. My internet connection was suck!!! Now it's getting better.. and i'll start blogging again. :D Hope the connection not getting worse again.. :)

Well, this last month flew so fast.. Lot of fun, laugh yet problems.. but i enjoyed it.
Many unpredictable things happened, cool.. :))

O.ow.. i start to talk to myself again. stop, Jean!

So, i will start post some writings again.

Anyway, lately i listen to 'A Rocket To The Moon'
and i heart their songs!!!






These are some of their prodigious songs:

If Only They Knew
Not A Second To Waste
Dakota
I Think About You Every Day (a bit slow)


Cao

Influence!

Many people walk in and out from my life. Some are just stranger that only pass a whilst and then disappear. Some pass a whilst but left a deep impression. And i will tell about a person that influences me lot. :D
I won't tell clearly the person is a boy or girl but i'll call it 'He'.

I know him for almost 3 years.. First time i saw him, suddenly i felt i have to know this guy. This is unsual feeling, really. I seldom to start a conversation with a stranger, but at that time something push me to did it. So, i did it!
and till now, we're bestpal. :D


You wanna know how is he look alike??
Sorry, won't upload any picture. haha


He's good-looking, smart, fashionable, cool, a good learner in so many things, unique, kind and humble (no?! Ahh, you must know him well more :P).

He may looks arrogant if you don't know him well but the truth, he is quite friendly..

He never looks weak! Really! He always overcome every problem well..somehow he's good at hiding his feelings especially if it a bad or sad things. :P

He is consistent in everything he likes to do...not a lazy guy.

He's good at so many things especially if it about design, gadgets, computer stuffs. He's a computer geek anyway..and he's also up-to-date bout lot of things.

He's a hardworker.. Work hard, play hard, and chat hard.. LOL

He has a great sense of music! :D

For me, he's a good listener and dependable.. Somehow i never talk much bout many things with my chums, yeahh, i'm lil bit introvert. :D but with him, it just like i can't hide a thang from him. Gosh!! kill me!!

Sometimes, he talks a little rude but honest.. He's one from lot of chums that can be like this. Say good when it is good, say it is not when it is not! straight to the point! >> heart it!

He's dare to be different!! Thumbs up! :D

He has a good sense in fashion..

Sometimes he may seemed doesn't care but he cares... He shows his caring in his way.. :)

And hey, most of time when he's in the crowded, he drew other peoples attention! really! He's attractive! haha..

Somehow, must admit it, he's trendsetter and contagious! :">

He's loveable, really... It will be like addicted to heroine, easy fall, hard to let go..
Dont believe? Just ask ... #ehem. haha

He's also has a good sense of humour...

Well, there're still a lot more to mention! Next time i'll continue.... *tired :p*



Why i can write a lot bout him??? Because ....
*speechless a whilst*
Ehem.. because i adore and heart him lot..
Every little thing of him draw me to know him better and better..
What??! Oh, No.. think it positively... It's like PLATONIC! :D
He's just like my brother anyway... *yeah, we're siblings from outter space, hahaha*



You know who i mean???
Sssttt...... Don't tell it to him, please! It will sounds cheesy.
He doesn't like cheesy thangs.
So it just between us. :P


Me? Random!

Yeahh, nowadays i feel random. Don't ask me why coz i don't know.. and if i know it, i think i won't tell. :P

I had lot of fun and great time these days but still can't erase these feeling. They appears sometimes.. and when they appear, i just sunk myself to music!!! Yeahh, i love music!!
:lovestruck:


Well, in this post i'll let out one of the stuffs that still make me unsteady somehow. My besties told me to write it out then i'll free!! So..
Let's start!

It was YOU! You curious about my feeling after we broke up, didn't u?

I didn't tell that time coz I'm an introvert and COOL! but somehow, that time, hatred grew in me. Everything you did and said seem so fake! -Sorry but it felt like that time :"> -

Time pass by, i choose to not let the hatred control me. You've forgiven when i wrote this post. And i tell you what i felt when we just broke up so you won't be curious anymore.

You were the one chasing me, then you make me fell for you, trapped me in doubt, and then you chose walked away!! It sounds so flirty. First, i won't let you go easily, boy. You chose me then i would try my best to keep what you've started. Time flies, it's just the same..even it became worse. You made a line between us. And honestly, i never feel i was ur girlfriend that time, we're just like friend. Nothing special.. I'm dumb. Oh, yes! dumb! but thanks for my friends and my besties that support me all the time when i feel down.

The last month before we broke up, i've overcame my feeling toward you.. It was useless keep stay with the one who didn't heary you as much as he ever told! It was a LIE! You didn't wanna end our relationship but you didn't want to involve deep in it, either. Well, you chose that! So after found the exact time, i asked to break up!

You must be think it was hard for me, felt guilty, but heyy.... i still laugh at that time we're broke up. I chat wif my chum and laugh a lot. Feel so free and happy that night. I was fine! No tears at all! Like i said, I'm COOL!! :D

AND now..........no harm no foul, fella! No hatred, no special feeling left! :D You are still my chum, yeahh you are. but that's all..


Some advice for you, if you dont sure about your feeling, dont do anything until you really sure about it! Don't involve too much with other people problems since you are 'not a boy but not a man yet!' , you even can't solve problem well when it came to you.. but THANKS lot, you've teached me lot about boys, really... :) So, hope you will more mature and find your happiness!!


Ps. I'm sorry for being selfish with this post but hell with it, I'm FREE now!! Heyheyyy!! :D

Songsssssss


Check..! Ehemm... Last days, i was suffering because all my playlist in winamp make me feel boring. Then, my lovely chum come and save me!!!! She gives me lot of great songs!! Like it, love it, fond of it, heart it!! haha..

Well, when i was in high school, i like to hear R&B, hip hop, POP, slow rock.. but when i knew PW, she introduces me to another kind of music, PUNK! and i heart it lot!!!!
Bowling For Soup, Paramore, All American Reject, CIWWAF, Boys Like Girls, and lot more.... Thanks to you, PoRi!! :D

These some of the latest songs that she gives me.
Heart it all, chum!
:D



All American Reject - When The World Comes Down



All Time Low - Put Up Or Shut Up



All Time Low - Nothing Personal



Boys Like Girls - Love Drunk



CIWWAF - The Same Old Blood Rush With A New Touch



Mest - Destination Unknown



The Academy Is - Almost Here



The Used - Artwork

Hapiness!!!

Yayayayy!! These two days felt so great!
Having fun with besties and a new friend! :D

30 Oktober 2009
and
31 Oktober 2009

I wont forget these two days.. :P

LOL

and since last night sometimes i just smirk all day long.
Shit! *slap myself*
hahaha
It's okay being happy, right?!

AND..another thing that make me excited,
the flight attendant will go here soon!
I missed him a lot, my homie! :D



A Gift For My Besties

Well okay... My besties will having her 24th b'day soon.. And for this few days, i've been thinking what will i give her.. Last Friday, after sit for half hour and staring at my old things, suddenly i got an idea.. and the 'For Besties Project' begin.. :D [sorry, can't tell what is the project, since i haven't give her the gift. :D]


Andd...today, the gift is 95% finished.. I haven't write birthday card for her. :D Ahh, i want to tell a lil'bit, I was so so excited when i made it. Curious bout it?? hehe...


Surpriseee.......!!

wait untill her birthday

Tersenyumlahhh


Haii, jumpa lagi dengan saya dalam acara 'Dari Hati ke Hati'.

Kali ini akan membahas tentang diri g sendiri dan senyuman..

Ternyata selama ini, g gak nyadar kalau g akhir-akhir ini jarang tersenyum. Well, memang akhir-akhir ini g banyak masalah juga.. :) Biasanya g bs meng-cover-nya lebih baik but this time, i don't realize that i failed. Jadi g kalau ngumpul, lagi seru-serunya, lucu-lucunya, bisa-bisanya g hanya diam-diam dengan muka ga enak diliat.. [Yahhhhhhhhhhhhh.....] and how did i know it?? G sangat beruntung punya seorang teman yang tidak hanya tempat berbagi suka duka tapi juga mau mengingatkan kalau ada yang ga beres pada diri g. Dia sering menyeret g kembali ke jalan yang benarr... Hahaha... and that's why i love her much more and moree... *merinding sejenak saat mengetik bagian ini, but hey, i really mean it :wink:*
I love you full...! hahaha..

Dan, saya akan bercerita sedikit ap yang terjadi saat temanku memberitahukanku tentang ini. G spontan mengingat kembali apa yg terjadi akhir-akhir ini, sebenarnya g kenapa, bla bla bla... Terjadilah sebuah percakapan tanpa suara antara hati g (H), otak g (O), dan Jeanot (J).

H: Hayo Otak, ingat-ingat kapan terakhir kamu senyum?
O: Diam, aku lagi konsen flashback nihh...
J : Hayoo, ingat-ingat..
2 menit berlalu...
O: Damn, selain pas jam kerja, aku gak ingat betul ap yang buat aku tersenyum..
H: I knew it, benar tuh kata teman si Jean..
J : Yeahh, betul tuhh.. *hoahmmm*
O: AHh, kamu tuh yg ga bener... klo ada masalah suka terbawa perasaan mlulu.. kalo kamu sedih kan aku jd pusing
H: Yeee...siapa yg banyak mikir ini itu? Kamu kann??? COba mikirnya nyari solusi pelan-pelan, lalu mikirin yang baik2, ganteng2 gt...kan aku juga jd senang...
O: Ummm, coba bantu aku... Pas aku lagi mikirin apa kamu senang dan sedih?
H: Contoh nih yee.. Kalo kamu mikirin cowo ganteng, aku senang.. kalo kamu mikirin makan, aku galau..kalo kamu mikirin duit, aku risau.. kalo kamu mikirin kenapa kamu ga bisa keren kyk Fahrani, Nahhh..aku sedih berat..soalnya itu jelas-jelas ga bisa..
O: -.-"
H: hehe... Ah udah, mari kita bikin statement
O: Okay2..
H & O: Jeanot, mari kita sambut hari-hari dengan hati yg gembira, penuh syukur, pikiran yang positif, optimis, dan jernihh..! Masalah ga pernah berhenti datang dan pergi selama kita masih hidup.. Jadi seperti judul lagu D'massive, jangan menyerahh! Harus bisa nikmati senang dan susah.. Jangan lupa selalu berusaha dan berdoa. Ora et labora... Okay?! Jeanot?? Jeanot???!! JEANOT??!!


- Rupanya si Jeanot sudah terlelap di depan komputer-


*maap kalau post saya ini jayus dan ngaco* hehe